

Two Years Later: A Letter to My Suicidal Self
T/W - Suicide, Self-Harm Dear Chris, Hey, sup. I hope this letter finds you well. Wait, no. You are definitely not well. Why the hell do...


My Impostor Syndrome and Me
It's been awhile since I've seen myself on television. I hit a bit of a slump before the pandemic, then when things slowly got back up...


Gaining Peace... in Exchange for a Gut
When I first became medicated in 2019, I started off with a mood stabilizer to treat my bipolar disorder. I got one warning from my...


I GOT THE BROOM TAP
Anxiety manifests in so many sneaky ways. I could fill a CVS receipt with a list of dumb shit that could send me into a tailspin at any...


Pages Before Phones
Friday is street sweep day in my neighborhood. I'm one of those Manhattanites who have a vehicle for the purpose of driving to the Bronx...


Breaking Up With a Therapist
We've all been there. You start seeing someone new and they see you, get you, ask questions and are invested in your stories. You do...


The Mania Guy
T/W - Suicide Mania has never been as devastating as depression for me. Sure, I have highs - lots of time, it's in the creative sense....


Odd Years in Autumn
I have a cycle. Every two years - odd years, to be exact - I hit a hard seasonal depression. It usually kicks off just around Labor Day....


Five Years Later
T/W - Suicide, mental illness. Five years ago today, I took the risk of my life. I quit a well-paying, union job with full-benefits to...